No one wants me!!!

At least a call back or a message was waiting for just about anything. Was really tired of calling repeatedly. She always called back, Most of the time it was she who called asking if I had my lunch , dinner and what not. And not a single call since morning. What is happening? Doesn’t she want to talk to me… If she dint want to talk and if she wanted to end it the least she could do was tell me why… I was having my lunch and I remembered how often she would complain that I never call and I thought she was hyper. Now I know what she meant its half a day since I have not heard her voice, and I am already lost.. on top of it its been a bad day in work.. how can it be good when she doesn’t wish me good morning… I say to myself ‘Stop being crazy’ you are just relating everything to her… That’s nonsense I can be on my own. I feel like digging a hole and burying myself..i don’t know what to do.. I call my friend just so that I can take my mind of her.. but even he says he is busy… Even my coffee friends are not there in the office …Alone in the sense there are tens of people and I hear the cluttering sound of the plastic keys but I can see none ,everyone is hidden behind the cubicles…or may be hiding from me.. I am alone and its scary… and I do the only thing I know when I am scared.. ‘Mummy’… and mom pics up the call and she asks what happened fear in her voice because she knows I call her when I am in trouble.. but strangely I am tongue tied cant say anything and then I just cut the call.. this day is getting weird day by day.. thank god its coming to a close is almost 5 or is it ??? my watch shows its 5 but my mobile shows 16:00.. I cant believe it .. I mean which is right? Its all fuzzy… just leave it.. but again why hasn’t she called yet.. its evening anyway and not even once… please please call.. ok I will try once more.. I will give a call.. no she isn’t answering… this is too much… its becoming dark I can see the sun setting from my office window.. How strange I had never seen this beautiful scene, or may be I never observed it, appreciated it..I don’t know.. I just left the office, glad the day was over, at least in office.. then I met my roommate and was so glad that I could talk to someone since morning I told him what happened since morning and how I felt so so lonely.. Immediately he said may be no one wants to talk to you.. maybe NO ONE WANTS you… I could feel the sweat tickling on my brow.. No that’s not possible.. Death is better than being lonely... But how... Just yesterday I had talked to so many and even she wished me good night and today how can so many things change so soon… I woke up to the her sweet voice of good morning.. I have never loved her more… what a dream… scary to the core… I am still sweating even after the call... of course aided by the Chennai sun… but I am glad it was just a … or maybe it was a day god created just to make me realize the worth of that one call.. I don’t know… all fuzzy again